Energy protection for medical treatments

Before each treatment:
Set intention and protection, for example, only those doing good to me will go into my physical and energy bodies, while all those negative and not working will be blocked and have no effect on me.

After each treatment:
If an affected organ or area is identified, visualise a cube with thick walls built with the most isolated materials enclose that area, so that it would not spread/infect other organs/areas.

Active imagination - Encountering with the Self

I start with sitting still and taking a few deep breathes. With my eyes closed, I focus on my inhale and exhale. For each inhale, the air goes down to my belly. For each exhale, there seems to be also a force gently go deeper and deeper down inside my body. I set my intention for meeting the Self, and wait while observing my breath. 

Though with my eyes closed, I can see and feel some bright light shining from the top left on me. First magenta, then mixed with violet, blue, green and yellow, becoming a dancing mixture of vibrant colourful light. It is calming. I am not only being surrounded and embraced by the light, but also being filled with the light. 

“Are you the Self?” 
“Whatever you want to call us.”
“Are you the Soul or the Divine?”
“Whether is the Self, the Soul or the Divine, these are your human terms and definitions. Just feel, and experience, then you know you can find no words to fully describe us.”

Physically, I am cuddling a cushion, with my right palm on the cushion, and left palm on my right hand. While seeing the bright light, I sense that my right little finger is moving, sometimes my left thumb as well. It is like a signal of connecting and reaching out. I also sense two spirals moving from the top of my head, the right one spinning clockwise, left one spinning anti-clockwise. My body slightly oscillating left and right. When I try to think, there is something stuck in my stomach pushing making me want to throw up. All movement stops. I relax. A stream of energy, light but fast, goes upwards and out from the top of my head as a gentle fountain of light.   

“Feel. Just be. In us, there is no fear or worries.”
“Advice?”
“Trust. Trust your connection with us. Trust the process. There is always a bigger truth out of what you can perceive. Never think about ultimate. That is out of your reach and imagination, as human. Just take what you can take. Further truth will keep unfolding when you are ready. Have faith. Have faith that you are with us, in us, part of us. There is no separation, unless you make the separation. Call upon us, for unity, for strength, for support. You can trust us as we trust you, have faith in us as we have faith in you.”

I open my eyes. The light disappears. I close my eyes again the light is still with me. 

“Yes. Come to us, anytime when you want to. That’s the way. Just feel our presence. Whether with your eyes closed or open. Anytime, anywhere, any space, any dimension, even when you are in any form or shape.”

I say thank you and gently open my eyes. A sense of serenity washes and fills me, as well as a sense of expansiveness extended outside of my body. The light is still here, I know, even with my eyes open.

活著

習慣了為所愛的而活，當他們離去了，自己就好像迷失了。

這就是為甚麼愛別離那麼難吧，除了失去對方，失去情感倚靠，也失去了一部份的自己。

要完全為自己而活嗎，也不容易，因為已經學懂自己不止是自己，也是能深切連結著其他存有的更大存在了。

學會為自己而活，然後為所愛值得的而活，最終在合一裡為天所用，為 divine will 存在，也許是人生一個重大課題。

分裂與完全

Self 本來就完全、全有。當落到身體為人，往往意識不到本來的完全，抓著部份認同為自己，跟某些部份失去連結。適合學習的時間到了，失去連結的部份，分裂／投射／顯化成外在實相可見的個體，無論是仰慕的偶像或是討厭的陰影。覺察那其實跟自己有關，接納那其實是自己的一部份，整合回歸內在，從分裂到完全。然後是下一課，下一次分裂／投射／顯化，下一次覺察、接納、整合，下一次回到完全。也許這就是 individuation 最簡單直接的說明。

Dialogue with the Divine and the Soul on Synchronicity

Divine: Synchronicity is in nature the resonance among vibrations and energies. When the energies are in sync, you would be able to observe the connection, the synchronicity, among inner and external events. The more you can tune in to me, the more you can feel oneness with all, not just humans and events, not just beings, but the oneness consciousness and vibe. Remember, there could be no separation between you and me, you and all, as you all are connected with, part of, in and within me.

Soul: I am the source of you, and your other parallel lives and aspects. The more you are connected and in tune with me, the more connected you could be with your other parallel lives and aspects, that you may even feel them, see them, and access to their talents, strength and lessons learned intuitively. Synchronicity is not just about your own life and events, but could be among lives and aspects. Remember, there is nothing to regret. There are always other you, living the life you missed.

請教渾沌

自從上學期的原型課，渾沌經常浮現在我的腦海。故事是這樣的：南海之帝儵和北海之帝忽，常常受中央之帝渾沌款待。儵和忽見人人都有七竅可以看可以聽可以吃可以呼吸，渾沌卻沒有，為了報答，就決定給渾沌開七竅。他們每天給渾沌開一竅，到第七天，開到第七竅，渾沌就死了。

我先在內在看見他的故事，再跟他對話。我向他請教是要跟他一樣，摒棄外在感官，只專注內在感官嗎？他說我比他除了內在還多了外在感官，其實是還豐富了，可以好好利用，例如比對外在和內在感官，對齊外在和內在感官，畢竟外在感官經由一堆傳送反應詮釋可能是誤導的幻覺，內在感官也可能是ego作怪。

我再請他給我建議，他說現時內在視覺和聽覺都用得純熟，可以關注其他內在感官，如內在動覺和本體感覺，比如內在氣和能量的流動，內在跳動顫動等。而外在感官有眼耳鼻舌身，視聽嗅味觸覺，考慮和體驗內在也往往依循這些方向維度，可以跳出這些限制發現體會以外的感官。

最後，我請求以後可以再去請教他。他說可以，他已經在我的團隊裡了。

彈走鬱悶

天空寫著無人能懂的故事 

花讀出遠古的預言 

蝴蝶指揮無形的躁動 

電梯拉開最遠的距離 

累了 

拖鞋拍打著地面 

碗碟合奏得支離破碎 

風扇聽自己細碎的呢喃 

浴室表演麻木無言 

夠了 

門彈走鬱悶昏沉